An interview with author, Christiane Wells about her experience living with bipolar disorder and addiction. Chris describes ten years spent in and out of psychiatric hospitals addicted to crack, not taking her medication and struggling with suicide. She began to get better when she decided that maybe she was not damaged after all and could give herself a shot at having a real life. She describes feeling bullied and shamed into taking her medication by doctors while in hospital. The side effects of her medications were sometimes so bad she felt she would rather die than take them. She discovered that as she started taking care of herself, protecting her sleep and creating more stability in her life, she actually needed less medication, and found it easier to take.