This week we present my 2012 conversation with Meredith Hall about her pregnancy at age 16. Meredith describes being shunned by her family and school and forced to give the child up for adoption. The experience was never acknowledged, and this silence left her alone and afraid for many years. Her memoir Without a Map explores how silence can be such an impediment to healing.
This week’s show is a conversation with Armenian-American photographer and filmmaker Nubar Alexanian. We talk about the film he is making with his daughter about their journey to their ancestors’ homeland, the site of the Armenian genocide which began in 1915. Nubar describes the legacy of silence that surrounds this genocide and the impact this silence has had on his sense of self and his place in the world. He also talks about how making this film has awakened deeply suppressed emotions in him, and helped him become proud of being Armenian for the first time in his life.
For more information about the film, visit scarsofsilence.com.
We conclude this series on loneliness, guilt, humiliation and jealousy with a story that combines all four. We also revisit an earlier interview with Dr. Aaron Lazare about shame and humiliation and how these self-conscious emotions intersect with the feelings we hide.
Today we continue our series on hidden emotions with a show about guilt. We hear stories from two people who carried guilt for decades and then decided it was finally time to confess.
A conversation with psychotherapist Sonia about her experience of arrest and imprisonment for possession of firearms and explosives as an anti-Vietnam War activist. In order to get professional licensure, Sonia waited years to get her record sealed, requiring her to keep her past a secret. We talk about what it has been like to live for 40 years with this secret, and the unexpected ways it has shaped her life.